Y Thursday, September 14, 2006Y
11:20 AM
... read his blog yesterday nite , when i reached home from work ... the entry really touched me ... indirectly i know i did lead him on ... so partly now , its because of me , he's heartbroken ... if only there was an opprtunity b/n me and him ... now im wishing upon a chance to meet him ... *sigh*what can i do now ? asked someone if there should / could be an opportunity for me to meet up with him ??? he said " my advice is dont , as emotions are involved now ... its difficult to keep checked on ur actions , when emotions are involved coz it tends to go overboard ... " ... so what now ... mistakes are bound to happen if that is .... *frustrations felt*
really missing him somehow here ... his laughter , words , craps , and sweetness ... he sure know how to make me feel special ... and appreciated ... but now i know it aint possible ... i cant possibly have the best of both worlds ( beau & him ) .... *slaps cheeks hard*
guess these lyrics , i will be singing to maself ... " Bila yang tertulis untukku , Ada yang terbaik untukmu , Kan kujadikan kau kenangan Yang terindah dalam hidupku ... Namun tak kan mudah bagiku Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu , Yang telah terukir abadi , Sebagai kenangan yang terindah ... " he is one sweet memory of ma life ...
*super duper sigh* ... gonna hault now ... i will come back ... *When the blue sky has turned grey , the earth is now wet* ..... *sad yet smiling* ......
